COLD

I stand beneath the sky, in the cold night.

I walk over fields nearby, to find you in sight.

The freezing breeze, it pinches me, “It shivers my soul”.

The piercing chill excruciates me, “Killing me overall”.

Once walking down the alley, I was not alone.

You were there beside me, on the path so unknown.

It was indeed beautiful, the flower that you picked.

I didn’t know it had thorns, till I was badly pricked.

When I was crying in pain, with my eyes shut tightly bound.

I thought you would release the strain, with your caressing arms around.

But to my surprise, it was still very cold.

I opened my eyes wide, and you were still nowhere to hold.

 I searched around here and there, the darkness was pitch black.

But to find you I had no fear, no strength, no might I lack.

Long hours of search and your absence, was too much for me to bear.

I accepted my destiny the way it came, stood up pretending- “Black’s not my fear”.

Pretensions never aid, but I had no clue.

I fell every time, tiered trying moving, a step or a few.

Strolling, leaping, falling, a few minutes again.

I heard you calling, but “Hallucinations remain”.

Hours and hours passed, striving through the way.

I was tracking back my path, and my life to what it was before that day.

I was crying all that time, but for you my eyes, “Dried they remain”.

Nothing within was fine, and I was faking myself, “I can sustain”.

The thorn was still pierced within, depreciating my willpower.

But I knew I cannot give-in, even if my path had thorns, no flowers.

Through all this I was very careful, I didn’t wanted to hate you.

I was walking and running, falling and skipping, with an undefined you, and hopes “A few”.

Long hours of dejection and suffering all alone, I thought of dying, better than being so.

Just then I saw a blinding light, I fell on my knees, and all I could see was the glow.

In this darkness pitch black, the light was really bright.

It came from nowhere, to set everything right.

Then my eyes were closed, but I could see the flashes.

The past and the memories, all those happy and sad splashes.

The light said something, unbounded undefined in words.

And then I felt as if resting in peace, the dark night ended, with the morning star, dew, breeze and birds.

But what was that the light conveyed, you might be wondering.

Was that a spell cast on me, or blessing that someone was showering.

It told me to be happy, that you are gone for your good.

It told me to wait for the morning, as the night’s end is just near stood.

It told me to be the same, no matter how circumstances and situations mould.

It told me to feel the warmth, even when it was damn cold.

It told me to hope high, to hope the best for you.

It told me to prepare for the worst, so that I could easily get through.

It taught me the best of things, that are inexplicable.

It told me that path to emancipation, is me and my destination being “Stable”.

I stood and walked for miles again, you- not by me-, but in my heart remained.

I was neither loving nor hating you, but why didn’t any of those sustained?

Eventually after toiling through, the dark and the sunny phase,

I was back to my belongings; I was "Over" the chase.

This was me all through the way, my journey all alone.

But the purpose of the loss was still as much unknown.

I promised to never look back, that land of flowery artifices.

But each day I watched through my curtains and smiled, coz those drizzling love showers, were too much not to believe.

With an undefined you, I am looping in goods and bads.

I want to break through, but then, I cannot.....yes I just cannot !!

Smiling through I promise to go, smiling through I promise to pray.

Smiling through I promise to grow, smiling through I will be, on my way.